There she sat on the lonely park bench watching the world pass her by. She has a lot of friends and a happy family but that wasn’t enough for her to get through life. She always felt like something is missing because with everything happening in her life, she still couldn’t find one single reason to look forward for tomorrow. Many would call her a typical average teenager who is obsessed about music, likes to party and spend time with her friends and daring and yes, that’s what she appeared to be, a girl who enjoyed life but if you look closely she is just far from all that. She is lonely, scared and insecure. She has never felt important all her life, she was just “average” but she wanted to be more than that but she has never got the chance to prove that she was more than “average” and she never knew how to. Never has anyone done or said something that made her feel special. She can remember some of her friends calling her lucky for having a life like she has. She was known to be popular, a head turner, funny, daring, challenging and every guy wanted her and she has broken many hearts along the way but she never asked for any of it. She never wanted to be popular or any of it. She just wanted to feel accepted but not because of her reputation or her looks but for whom she is. But no one looks at her in that way, they just look at her for whom she is known to be but not for who she really is. Every night she hopes and wishes that she could find one reason, a ray of hope to look forward for the next day but she is only left disappointed the next day with a bit of hope that the next day would be different. Among her friends she known to be the heart breaker, secret keeper, adviser, comforting one, the outgoing one, the funny one and so on. She knew what to say and when to say and she knew how to be the perfect friend. She knows too many secrets about her friends and she just understood others problems and she would try her best to help them to figure it out. She knew the answer for all the others problems but hers. She had no one to talk to about how she really felt. No one knows how lonely she feels and with the amount of friends she has, no one would even suspect that she’d ever lonely. She cries herself to sleep most of the time or she’s up trying to figure out what she should do with her life. And no, there was nothing dramatically wrong with her life, it was just “average” but that is also the one thing that was wrong. She appears to be so strong and sometimes even insensitive as many would say but inside she’s crying out. She’s sick of pretending that she’s happy but she has no choice. She once tried talking to one of her friends about how she feels but her friend even before she actually started telling jumped into the conclusion that it’s because she was single for a few months. The moment she heard her friend’s answer she gave up explaining, she was amazed. This has nothing to be with being single. She had guys begging for her and some even tried to take their lives for her. After hearing her friends answer to question she figured how shallow people think of her. She has considered suicide to be the answer countless times but she just didn’t want to die before at least finding a ray of hope. She has cut herself so many times and now it also has no effect. Her loneliness is growing each and everyday and her eyes are getting wary after crying for hours everyday but it’s funny how people has only seen her cry only a handful of times in her life time. She wants to know whether she is the only one who feels useless and worthless like this or there are others too but she has no way of knowing because no one is listening. A raindrop falls on to her shoulder bringing her back to present. The park is almost empty now and the sun is setting and it’s time for her to go back home and get ready to face tomorrow with her broken smile plastered on her face and wondering whether anyone would notice if she just walks away from life. It drizzles harder when she starts to walk home, she gathers all her thoughts together and teardrops starts filling her lonely eyes. Someone calls her name and she turns back to see 3 of her friends waving and they walk towards her, “Where were you?! We missed you at practice. You know it’s not the same without you!” And instead of replying, she smiles through her tears, maybe this is the reason, this is the ray of hope she was waiting for. She walks home with her friends and she turns back to look at the empty bench, would this feeling last or is it just temporary? She knew the answer as she looked away..

Me being a total music freak, it's gonna be really tough to pick 5 of my many favourite bands...but lemme try anyway

1) FM Static

2) Lifehouse

3) The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

4) Jimmy Eat World

5) Funeral For A Friend

All about punk,rock n emo!! woohooo!!

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